we had seed group last night and Wendy and i led the group in a Mark Heard tune. we played our guitars and i was nervous. i'm the Mark Heard fan among the two of us and Wendy humours me on this topic so that we went with something that i enjoy. she allows things like that often and we do what i enjoy more often than we do what she enjoys.
i've been thinking about my marriage a lot today and i've decided that i want to be a better man. don't get me wrong, i basically like me and i'm not depressed, i just want to be a better man. i want to be more attentive, i want to hang out more and do stuff together. i want to invite friends over and play a game and i want to go for bike rides just as soon as i get my wobbly back tire working again.
i want to hear her. i want to see her and be enthralled with whatever has her attention. i also don't want to annoying, i want to be cute and playful and that can be a fine line sometimes.
i just want to be a better man, a better husband, a better friend. i love you Wendy.